The last heartbreak

Betrayal of trust is oh so hard to take. It’s such a shock to the system, so devastating, so wrong. It’s sent my mind spinning and questioning everything and everyone. How did this happen, why did this happen.

The stress, inability to eat or sleep as the body struggles to find homeostasis again when normal in now gone. The world is no longer the same. Because of one-none will be granted trust, even though it could well be deserved. Innocent people are being driven away as I lick my wounds.

Tin Man has been playing on repeat as the tears flow. It seems the skies are even in collusion to maintain the mood as dark, grey and without hope as possible. The rain pouring through my ceiling seems almost an added insult to my life as it is.

This heart has taken it’s last battering! It’s no longer open for business. It’s a really good heart I just couldn’t do that to it again, it deserved so much better. I may try and find an out of order sign to wear across it.

Then to have the blame placed squarely on my shoulders. To hear the words,” I really don’t care anymore.” Twisting the knife deeper and harder into my wounded bleeding soul. When only days prior we shared a bed.

Maybe some people are strong enough to handle it but I wasn’t…..I wasn’t at all.

Being made a fool does something to you. It’s an exceptional kind of hurt. It has an element of embarrassment along with a feeling of worthlessness. Why did I deserve this?

Another hard hard lesson learned.

I’ll just be so glad when class is finally over.